February is about to close and March is soon upon us. How are you doing with your plans to create newness in the coming year? Still on track? Taken a few side roads? Fallen off the wagon all together? Wherever you are at in the journey, it is Never too late to review & reboot if necessary. Heck, count it as a Win that you are aware enough to know where you are at in the process and willing to own it.
Speaking of reviewing and rebooting, I had a huge ah-ha moment about 3 weeks ago that made me stop and take pause and have some powerful soul searching moments. I walked out of the gym after a challenging workout
of heavier squats than I had ever done and an unprovoked thought/realization smacked me right in the head. The realization...I am afraid to be strong! What?! I like to be strong. I pride myself on being strong. (Not the best idea to pride myself on this) Yet...it was true...at least in the past 3 years. |
to do so, that are a bit uncomfortable to admit and look at. However, in doing so, I have been able to shed some light on the truth of this thought by way of some events that have taken place, which I attached a belief too as proof of "it's not ok to be strong."So, let me take a moment to Dare Greatly and be vulnerable and share what I have discovered...in part. As my life and identity were changing in what felt like drastic ways I was afraid to be strong for fear I might not receive the help I thought I would need to survive. I was also afraid to be strong because in some instances it would make me stand out and go against the norm and I already felt different as it was. I had friends leave my life because they said I was too strong and in charge...something I had worked hard to learn as I overcame deep codependency behaviors from my past. I also realized that being strong physically made me stand out and I didn't always like the comments people made in those regards either, because they say things like, "I am weird or crazy or obsessed." Not what I want to hear when I have worked hard to achieve something. These are just a few of my ah-ha's in my "I'm afraid to be strong" realization.
Where to go from here. First, I had to get honest with myself and own the thought so I could do something about it. Second, I had to get it outside of myself and share it with someone(s) who I trust and could give me a different perspective. Three, I got to decide if I wanted to change that belief and how I would do it. Four, be willing to go to the dark place and do the hard thing!
The realization and inquiry that came along with it have breathed some new life into me that has given me an energy I haven't felt for a while and I Am loving it! Some of the ways I know I need to be strong are still scary and I feel myself want to fight against them and I am going to let that be ok and keep moving forward. Being strong physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually is sexy and attractive. I/we don't have be zealots with our "strong-ness" but rather own it and go about in quiet, confident ways and make a difference in our lives and others. In doing so...we can change the world...one person at a time, if we desire to do so.Reminder...being strong does not equate to a pant/dress size, number on the scale, body fat
or weight lifted...although they may be a part of the whole. This is YOUR life and you only get ONE! Why Not walk through it being strong, no matter what anyone else says or thinks. Go out and grab it and live it to the fullest...whatever that is for Y-O-U.
So, where are you afraid to be strong? What scary things do get to own and/or put out there? What darkness do you get to wander through on your journey? How may we assist you? Today is the day to review and reboot and make a commitment to be strong...or at least...stronger!
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| Happy to be a weirdo because I Am Strong! |
Until next time..
Go BE Great...& Strong!
Jennifer Saunders
BS, ACE Certified Personal Trainer
Reiki Energy Therapy
Buttingear
Intuitive Life Coach
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